leaving for UMASS Boston to do my placement testing; giving myself an extra half hour to get lost (Taken with instagram)

I havent been on in i dont know how long, but I’m only gunna say a couple things right now.

I’m supposed to be content with my life. Being content is the key.

I don’t think I am. I look at everyone’s pictures of being with a bunch of friends, doing school shit, fun shit. Not doing the same shit everyday with the same four people.

I want to have other friends so I can have other things to do. I wish I did soccer again this year, I miss it. I wish people gave me a chance instead of judging me by my habits or my looks. I’m smarter than all my friends, I have ambitions, I could be so much more than what I’m settling for. Ugh. I don’t even know how to say everything I want to say.

But in conclusion to this horrible entry, I fucked up. I redirected myself and now I’m stuck on this detour and I’m not quite sure how to get back to the main road. My road..

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the-dopeness:

beattheodds:

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automatic reblog my friends

I look at myself, disgusted.

It’s sad. I’m not happy with myself lately. I just feel like I’m not me sometimes.

I love coming home to some kitty lovinn<3 (Taken with instagram)

I’ve got some issues that nobody can see.

500daysofhallucinations:

rocksolidamour:

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pokingsmot:

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i never come on anymore. i’m not going to do anything on here, but say that right now i’m a mess.

i cant sleep. i cant think. my thoughts are fucking endless, but none of them make sense. i dont understand how i feel. my actions. shits fucking me up. im not happy anymore. i havent been happy since all of it happened. im a shitty person and im hating myself more and more everyday. this is not what i wanted right now. this is not what i need.

i cant do this.

500daysofhallucinations:

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exactly how i feel right now. i feel like i’ve just been laying in my moms bed all day. just watching tv and doing nothing on the computer. its really depressing and gets me in the worst mood. a mood that brings negativity to every thought that pops into my head. i just want to fall asleep so i can wake up and start another day. so i can see zach. so i can just feel something other than empty. i hate being in my house. it does some fucked up shit to me.